Do you recognize confidence?

I asked: What happens when my confidence shatters itself on the floor?

I asked: What happens when my confidence shatters itself on the floor?

And

Billy Mann

responded with: Confidence doesn’t shatter. False confidence does. You got this D.

…and in my mind, I saw my confidences. I saw the shape of my false confidence shattered on the floor. Another layer smashed to pieces. All kinds of sizes, in all kinds of ways.

Meanwhile, my true confidence was tethered to my body. As my false confidence shattered, my true confidence grew and bloomed in her place.

False confidence is that feeling in your stomach, and that whirlwind of thoughts in your head asking, “Why am I here? Why did I do that?”. When we do things, and don’t know why, it sends us into a spiral. Including me. It’s knowing that we were right, but not sure why. It’s intuition growing in place of normal logic. False confidence is what I can hide behind during situations where I am lost and confused. I can find a sliver of safety for a moment, taking in the new challenge.

But, soon after my false confidence needs to shatter. explode. disappear quickly. It’s a false layer of soul. Bringing attention to the connection that needs to be there, but isn’t there, yet.

My false confidence has been shattering over and over and over and over, in the last few weeks. It’s pushing me to grow. Telling me how to live on this new frequency.

It’s important that I recognize my sensitivity. It’s important that I give her grace, and that I remain soft. I can’t grow in thick skin. I just stay sheltered, scared and lost.

I welcome the shattering of my confidence, as much as it hurts. Even if it’s scary. I know that it is the direction I need to go.

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Now, true confidence. That the kind of stuff that grows out from your soul. It’s what helps you claim your space in this world. And wow, that’s happening now more than ever. I feel like my brain has been rewired (well, it has).

True confidence comes with no questions and no ego. It simple exists where it needs to be, when it needs to be. Confidence smiles at challenges. She laughs at intimidation, knowing deeply that it’s just an uncomfortable state that will pass by soon enough.

True confidence is breathing calmy, and doing without thought. It is choosing joy because you can, not because you think you should. There are no thoughts to fight in a state of true confidence. She is whole. She doesn’t shatter. She bends to the energies twirling around the collective, holding integrity and honesty in her hands, as they extend to help others around her.

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I wanted to know what happens when my confidence shatters itself on the floor.

It turns out that it is part of the circle of Life. Confidence is meant to fall to pieces, shattering the old connections and emotions to reconnect the mind, body and soul with new neural pathways.

The confidence that I felt fall away from my body, was the false confidence that I was carrying around. It was me trying to grow.

Once I grew, it felt away making room for new neural pathways. Reviving my nervous system, again and again.

What a big, big lesson. Thank you

Billy Mann

for this inspiring thought process.

I love growing.

Thank YOU for being here,

D