and so I write
words on the opposite site of burnout - too much energy
I decided to come sit here, because there’s something about the energy within me. It’s fresh, it’s new, it’s expressive. It’s wanting out.
and so here I write.
The other edge of burnout is having too much energy. Energy that’s hard to regulate. It’s taking me a couple years, to establish my boundaries to play within them. If I have too little energy, it’s not helpful. And if I have too much energy, it’s not helpful either.
Right now, I’m past the middle - starting to learn into the too much energy bucket. It’s excitement, and nervousness. It’s being grateful for having energy.
I have learned to acknowledge that being wired is not helpful, either. Having too much energy causes mistakes through reading too fast or not paying attention to what someone is saying. I miss out on as much as life, as when I was burnt out and had no energy.
I’ve had to develop discipline to create balance in my life. I play within my boundaries, understanding that I have energy for each day, and it cannot build up or diminish because then I cannot maintain a constant, balanced energy source.
Consistency is important. Bed time is necessary. Good food and a good amount of food is required. Exercise is needed. Working with my mental capacity is the icing on the cake. If I haven’t worked my mind enough, or if I’ve worked it too much, my energy becomes out of balance.
Knowing the equation of your body is so important to your relationship with yourself. You have to play with the inputs and observe the outcomes, to build the equation. As we grow, we get more experiences to put into this equation. Once you have knowledge of some of the conditions required for your balanced energy, then you’ve got a working formula. You get to work on this formula your whole life. It’s a beautiful process, if you tune into it.
If you’re wondering, I’m actually fine. I just had a burst of energy and needed to express it somehow. I’m not in the state of having too much energy. But I’m noticing the state of my energy right now, and I’m reflecting on previous times when this was more extreme. Usually when I’m really overwhelmed by lots of stimulation, or maybe listening to music too loud etc… there’s lots of reasons to end up in a high drive state. The important piece is recognition, along with the ability to ground back down.
Anyway, you ended up here, reading my words. I hope that they brought what you needed.
Thank you for Being here,
D